BIG Brother contestant Laura Carter has burst into tears and blasted the reality show for the “devastating effect” it had on her mental health.
Laura, 37, has told fans that her weight dropped to just six stone after appearing in the 2016 Eu falo sobre coisas em que eles estão melhor do que eu BB and called it ‘the darkest, loneliest time’.
A atriz, who flashed her boobs and had sex with Marco Pierre White Jnr while in the house, even goes as far as to say it “ruined” her life.
In a YouTube video filmed in her kitchen, Laura blames series 17’s ‘Paranoia’ tema for her outrageous behaviour on screen and says she was left with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder [PTSD].
Ela disse: “We didn’t know that was the theme. It was a real mind f***. I had no idea and neither did anyone else. It was like being in a living nightmare.”
One task saw the housemates dress up as scarecrows who were to be attacked by human ‘crows’ throwing custard and mud.
Contudo, Laura was the only housemate who was ever attacked. This caused her to believe the public were behind it because they “hated” sua.
“It was really degrading, horrible things and it was always me,” ela explicou. “I went into the toilet after and was wiping everything off me and I thought, ‘The public hate me, they want to humiliate me’. And I did feel humiliated.
“It’s like this switch went inside of me and it was like self-destruct mode. I’d been pushed into this corner, I felt like there was no hope for me. I was made to feel everyone hated me. That’s when my behaviour with Marco ensued.”
Laura continued: “After having therapy and talking about what I did, I’ve come to realise it was almost like a mask I’d put up to protect myself and my feelings. I lost all self worth. I forgot that my family were watching, my friends were watching.”
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Prior to her Big Brother stint, Laura was working in London’s West End as an actress and as a hostess in exclusive nightclubs.
She admits her agent warned her against signing up to a reality show but still went ahead, after BB producers carried out “months of psychiatric testing”.
But after being the eighth housemate to be evicted, Laura struggled to come to terms with her “new life” outside of the show.
She was sacked from her previous jobs and found herself living alone after her housemate moved out.
“I just remember lying on the kitchen floor with my head in my hands not knowing what to do with myself,” Laura disse.
“I’d sit in silence – I had nothing left to give. It was the darkest, loneliest time of my life.
“I realised my life was not going to go back to how it was. Even clubs I worked in didn’t want me back.
“My life changed but it literally ruined my life. It ruined it.”
Laura eventually decided to pack her bags and move from London and back home to her family in Leeds.
But the backlash from her Big Brother stint was not fully behind her.
Laura admits: “When Jax was about 18 meses de idade, I started suffering from insomnia. I started having nightmares when I could actually fall asleep, I was having nightmares of being watched.
“I was racked with anxiety, I had anger issues. Even the tiniest thing someone would say to me, I’d blow up. It’s like I was a pressure cooker about to blow at any point.
“I was also horrendously thin, I didn’t realise that I was so thin until my mum said, ‘I’m really worried about you now’.”
Laura’s weight had plummeted to 6.7st.
Ela disse: “It was a real physical effect of what had happened to me mentally.
“I’d tried to block it all out, I’d tried to get on with my life but was seeing how mentally damaged I was.”
agradecidamente, Laura has had therapy to help deal with her mental demons. She also now weighs more than 9st after working with a personal trainer.
But blasting Big Brother, she admits: “I feel like I was really taken advantage of.
“As much as the producers were doing their job, all this process was to see how I would react to things.
“The minute the show finished, that was it. It was like, ‘See ya’. And it was all left for me to deal with.”
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Recalling what her therapist concluded, Laura added: “Ela disse, ‘You’ve been suffering with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, you have been through so much and it’s come out in a physical way. You are mentally damaged from what has happened’.
“It’s taken me up until this point to be okay and sit here and share my story.”