FRANKIE Bridge revealed she made her husband Wayne draw up a will on their honeymoon during a mid-flight anxiety attack.
The former Saturdays singer said she begged her footballer husband to ring up a lawyer while they waited for the plane to leave.
فرانكي – who is a mental health campaigner – suggested it was the stress of leaving their then-nine-month-old son Parker had “built up”.
Writing in her new self-help book Grow: Motherhood, Mental Health & Me she said: “I burst into tears. The stress of leaving Parker behind had been building up.”
واصلت: “I had tried to overcome the sense of terror and fear that engulfed me throughout the days leading up to this moment and suddenly, when I realised I couldn’t turn back, I was here, on a plane, with no exit, it hit me.
“At a time we were supposed to be at our happiest, I realised that if we both died Parker would be alone and without parents for the rest of his life.
“ليس فقط هذا, but we had made no plans in case this happened, we had left no will or provisional plan for how we would be cared for.
“No one would know what our wishes were for him. I made واين call his lawyer.
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“The type of crisis moment is something I had dealt with throughout my life, but I had never been responsible for someone else and this compounded my paranoia and exacerbated my fears to the point of, نحن سوف, making my will.”
The coupe – who married in 2014 – are also parents to six-year-old Carter.
Frankie also said her mental health struggles flared up during both her pregnancies, and like many new mums she found it hard to come to terms with her changing body.
كتبت: “On one hand I felt immense pride in the fact that my body was growing another human.
“On the other hand I also carried the immense weight of underlying shame. I was so ashamed and if I’m honest, shocked that I wasn’t a gorgeous, glowing, neat and tidy pregnant woman.
“My bum was bigger than my bump most of the time.”
Comments from strangers didn’t help, and Frankie added: “People often thought I was carrying twins.” The result of her battle with her looks led to Frankie believing she had “failed at pregnancy” and even before she had given birth she said she was terrified she “wasn’t the right kind of mother”.
Her career as a pop star had begun when she was picked to be a singer in youth group S Club Juniors when she was just 12.
She was part of the group for three years before she was picked to join girl band The Saturdays, alongside Una Healy, Rochelle Humes, Mollie King and Vanessa White, في 2004.