ستايسي سليمان has opened up about her life as a teenage mum saying هي “wasn’t ready” and found breastfeeding “hideous”.
The Loose Women panellist – who got pregnant aged 17 – said she suffered terrible postnatal depression.
“I almost felt violated giving birth. People tell you that you’ll feel this rush of love and happiness the minute it comes out, and I struggled to find that,” قالت ال وصي.
“I questioned who I was, my morals. اعتقدت: ‘Why didn’t I immediately love this human? What’s wrong with me?""
The X Factor star explained that she found breastfeeding uncomfortable and felt exposed.
“Breastfeeding had a lot to do with it. I was a teenage girl, so to get my boobs out in front of people just felt gross,” واصلت.
“I found the whole thing really conflicting. When I breastfed Rose, I loved every second of it, but I found it hideous the first time around.
“And there are the things people don’t talk about when you’re going to have a baby, like the midwife is going to check all the cracks in your nipples, and people are constantly touching you and looking at you.”
The star is mother to Zachary, 14, and Leighton, عشرة, from previous relationships.
She also has son Rex, ثلاثة, and daughter Rose, who turns one this month, whom she shares with former EastEnders star husband Joe Swash.
العام الماضي, the TV favourite opened up about her طفل عثرة as a teen.
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Speaking on Loose Women, شرحت: “I just remember feeling so ashamed. I know that sounds awful but when I was pregnant with Zach, all I felt the whole way through was shame.
“I looked like a baby as well. I looked about six. I think people just looked and were like, ‘ugh, why is she pregnant?’ Maybe it’s a bit of a trauma I just haven’t addressed.”
Stacey has previously said her parents didn’t put any pressure on her when it was revealed she was pregnant aged 17.
قالت: “Even though they were really upset with me, and hurt and disappointed, they never told me whether I should go ahead and have the baby or not have the baby.
“Which at the time was absolute turmoil because all I wanted was for my mum and dad to tell me what to do.”