A WOMAN who was abused by Soham murderer Ian Huntley as a teenager says she has faced a lifetime of guilt after refusing to report him to cops.

Emma Rawson was just 15 when she was groomed by Huntley – and says she fears her silence left him free to kill Holly Wells and Jessica Chapman.

The schoolgirls vanished on August 4, 2002, after attending a family barbecue.

They were lured into school caretaker Huntley’s home after he claimed his partner, the girls’ teaching assistant Maxine Carr, was in the property.

Two weeks later, Holly and Jessica’s burnt remains were discovered in a ditch at an air base 14 miles away at Mildenhall, Suffolk.

Speaking for the first time, Emma told the Mirror she lied to social services about her relationship with “first love” Huntley.

“Had I said we were sleeping together things might be different. I feel guilty. He’s evil,” she said.

Emma, now 42, says she got pregnant by monster Huntley. When she told him, he throttled her and warned: “I’ll kill you.” She later miscarried.

She now has three children, and said Huntley preyed on her when she was a teenager because she was vulnerable.

“He’ll be grinning about how many lives he’s ruined,” she said.

Emma had been kicked out of her own home when Huntley took her in.

“I thought I was in love and this was a relationship,” she said.

“We’d hold hands down the street and go shopping together. He didn’t care that everyone knew he was with a 15-year-old.”

The relationship broke down when Huntley met someone else.

Emma saw his face in a paper when she was working at a London pub.

At that time, he was pretending to help with the search for Holly and Jessica, and giving frequent interviews to the press.

“I had this feeling in the pit of my stomach, I felt sick,” she said.

Had I said we were sleeping together things might be different. I feel guilty. He’s evil

“He likes young girls.

“I’ll never get the image of Holly and Jessica out of my head.

“I can see them now, clear as day with the Man United T-shirts on. I don’t think that will ever leave me.”

Huntley was jailed for life in 2003 with a minimum sentence of 40 years.

Carr got three and a half years for giving him a false alibi. She served 21 months.

Emma has lived in Coningsby, Lincs, for the past 18 years, with husband Kevin, 42, and children Luke, 13, Charlie, nine and 20-month-old Frankie.