A WOMAN who was abused by Soham murderer Ian Huntley as a teenager says she has faced a lifetime of guilt after refusing to report him to cops.

Emma Rawson was just 15 when she was groomed by هنتلي – and says she fears her silence left him free to kill Holly Wells and Jessica Chapman.

The schoolgirls vanished on August 4, 2002, after attending a family barbecue.

They were lured into school caretaker Huntley’s home after he claimed his partner, the girls’ teaching assistant Maxine Carr, was in the property.

بعد أسبوعين, Holly and Jessica’s burnt remains were discovered in a ditch at an air base 14 miles away at Mildenhall, Suffolk.

Speaking for the first time, Emma told the Mirror she lied to social services about her relationship with “first love” هنتلي.

“Had I said we were sleeping together things might be different. I feel guilty. He’s evil,” قالت.

إيما, الآن 42, says she got pregnant by monster Huntley. When she told him, he throttled her and warned: “I’ll kill you.” She later miscarried.

She now has three children, و قال هنتلي preyed on her when she was a teenager because she was vulnerable.

“He’ll be grinning about how many lives he’s ruined,” قالت.

Emma had been kicked out of her own home when Huntley took her in.

“I thought I was in love and this was a relationship,” قالت.

“We’d hold hands down the street and go shopping together. He didn’t care that everyone knew he was with a 15-year-old.”

The relationship broke down when Huntley met someone else.

Emma saw his face in a paper when she was working at a لندن pub.

في ذلك الوقت, he was pretending to help with the search for Holly and Jessica, و giving frequent interviews to the press.

“I had this feeling in the pit of my stomach, I felt sick,” قالت.

Had I said we were sleeping together things might be different. I feel guilty. He’s evil

“He likes young girls.

“I’ll never get the image of Holly and Jessica out of my head.

“I can see them now, clear as day with the Man United T-shirts on. I don’t think that will ever leave me.”

Huntley was jailed for life in 2003 with a minimum sentence of 40 سنوات.

كار got three and a half years for giving him a false alibi. She served 21 الشهور.

Emma has lived in Coningsby, لم أستطع الوصول إلى النشوة الجنسية بعد انقطاع الطمث, for the past 18 سنوات, with husband Kevin, 42, and children Luke, 13, تشارلي, nine and 20-month-old Frankie.