亲爱的迪德: LONELINESS has driven me to pay for female company – and now I’m filled with shame.
Since my wife was placed in care two years ago due to her Alzheimer’s, I have felt so 丢失.
We hadn’t spent a day apart since we were teens. I’m now 70 and she’s 68.
I promised her I would never put her in a home, but there was only so much I could do on my own. Now I feel I’ve let her down.
She barely looks at me when I visit, and I’m struggling with guilt. I have no friends, and our only son is across the country.
In a moment of despair, I found an escort’s number on the internet.
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I met this woman and we had some tea and chatted. She did give me a lovely cuddle at the end.
While I initially felt 紧张的, for once I didn’t feel alone.
We didn’t have sex, but I’m disgusted with myself.
I bet my wife would be so ashamed.
迪德说: You have nothing to feel guilty about. While you promised her that you wouldn’t put her in care, you had no choice.
There is also no need for you to feel foolish for seeking female company. Loneliness can be a very isolating feeling.
有, 然而, many other ways you can meet people – meetup.com can be a great place to find activities and groups locally.
My support pack Feeling Lonely? will help too.