VICKY Pattison has opened up about her struggle with alcohol in an emotional social media post.
The former Geordie Shore star, 34, has been working with Channel 4 on a documentary about alcohol abuse.
Today, she went and watched the first rough cut of the show, and explained how it left her “speechless”
Vicky posted a selfie to her Instagram grid, writing a long and heartfelt caption about the upcoming release.
She started: “It’s not often I’m rendered speechless.
“But after watching the first cut of my new documentary with channel 4 today… That’s honestly what I am.”
The star spoke about her father’s battle with alcohol abuse: “My dad’s illness & my own complicated relationship with alcohol is something that has had a profound affect on who I am as a person.
“At times, when I wasn’t in the best place- when I was abusing alcohol & depending on it I would lie awake at night wondering if this was just it- the start of that slippery slope.
“And in my darkest moments, I truly believed that it was just a forgone conclusion- that no matter how hard I tried to be something different, something more or something better… “
The heartbreaking post continued: “I was always just going to end up an alcoholic like my dad, hurting the people I loved & unable to break the toxic cycle.
“And for years, that’s why I pushed people away or had transient friendships- because I was so scared of getting close to people as I believed eventually I’d just end up letting them down & hurting them through my inevitable behaviour 🥺”
Vicky continued: “I feel so nervous about sharing something so raw & being so vulnerable with you all, but after seeing that sneak peek today I am so pleased I took that step…
“I want everyone to understand more about what it means to be the child of an alcoholic, I want everyone to understand more about addiction & learn more than just the negative narrative we’ve been spoon fed.
“It is an illness- & people suffering with it need our understanding, our kindness but also our strength too- I spent too long enabling a person I love & I know now that I was really only protecting myself.”
The star added: “More than anything, I want anyone struggling to know they are not alone and that they do not have to be defined by their mistakes, their parents decisions or their past…
“Mistakes, moments of weakness, stumbles… they are lessons, not life sentences- so remember that and don’t be too hard on yourself, or the ones you love… And move forward with compassion and understanding and the hope that tomorrow will be a better day.. 💙”
She concluded: “I hope this documentary helps anyone struggling and I really can’t wait for you all to see it.
“Vicky Pattison: alcohol, my dad and me… Coming this summer to @channel4 🤍”
Vicky’s friends, family and followers all rushed to the comment section to support her.
Dreamboys star Rogan O’Connor wrote: “Love you Vick! Also, Speechless is a good look for you 😂❤️x”
Towie’s Pete Wicks commented: “❤️❤️❤️”
And one fan wrote: “100% – your parents illness & addiction doesn’t define you although sometimes you live in fear that you’re making the same mistakes they did.
“Thank you for documenting this. A lot of people suffer in silence from growing up in an environment of addiction.
“More people need to know that the mistakes they made are not a definition of who you are!”
Most read in Celebrity
After her emotion-filled post, Vicky posted an Instagram story of herself tearing up.
She captioned it: “God I’m just so overwhelmed”.
Thankfully, the former I’m A Celeb winner didn’t stay tearful for too long, as she got ready for her holiday.
Vicky shared as she went for a facial with the DrMediSpa team.
She opted for the fire and ice facial, which starts from £150.
The Geordie beauty showed off her glowing skin post-facial as she smiled for a selfie in the car.
Whilst Vicky’s pricey facial might not be an option for everyone who wants to get that brightening and tightening effect, there are plenty of products available which can help mimic the effects at home.
Wishful – the skincare brand owned by Huda Kattan – has just launched its Eye Lift & Contour 1% Bakuchiol and Peptide Serum.
It snatches, lifts, de-puffs, contours, firms, brightens the appearance of dark circles and even helps soften fine lines.